After 3 stages of interview, I received a call from OCBC which offer me a job titled Personal Banker, placed me in Penang Branch with responsible to maintain customer relationship and market the investment product. The offer was quite good, nice starting salary with foreseeable commission, peaceful life in Penang island.
Here's come to my dilemma, personally I think I can do well in sales job but I don't enjoy sales very much especially selling the product which you think is not very profitable and together with some conflict of interest. But it is a good offer, very good one for me as fresh graduate. My family especially my parents would be utmost happy if I can take up this offer because is nearer to them (who didn't wish that they can stay with their family~).
Currently, I set my target of career to be a Fund Manager in future. I might also won't reject any opportunities to be an entrepreneur in future when I think I'm ready for it. I enjoy investment and business in the same time, I think they are actually inter related as well. An good investment is come from a good business, nobody could doubt it.
After some carefully consideration and wars between Angel & Demon inside my heart, I had come to a decision which to reject the offer from OCBC. This decision is a painful decision, not easy with it. I give up a good offer to wait for the uncertain offer from desire company which might result in lower benefits compare to OCBC offer. But in the deep of my hearts, I would like to take a try on the things that I desire for while I'm still free of any burden of family, financial, pressure and else more factors. I would like to see how far can I go in this place, how well can I do in this position.
I know that I will face a lot of doubt on this decision, disappointment of my parents and else. But I would like to take a few years time, perhaps 3 years to determine that should I work in this field or not. This 3 year would be my hardcore year, I will face financial trouble, longer working hour perhaps and more unforeseeable factors. I must get myself ready, prove to myself and my family & beloved girlfriend that I can do this things right.
I told myself, even I can't achieve anythings on this 3 year, I still earn something like knowing a different world, knowing some of the notable person and knowledge that will follow you until the last breath of mine. I told myself, I'm just age 22 (in fact still 21 until June), I have nothing to lose with.
Dear family, friends, beloved one, please give me 3 years of time, I need your support to walk this path. I specially thanks to some of them, including Kai Shuen, Paul Chin, both of my sisters and my beloved girlfriend whose support me on my decision and keep on courage me. Specially to my gf, I might can't give you a foreseeable future in this few year, but I will work my very best for our future, this I will keep my word.
Sometime I think a few words or sentences might make my feeling better, no doubt I'm confused now but after this passage I shall back to my path, be the one which I wish to be and fight for my dreams.
When nothing holds you, you will have to hold yourself;
When no one answer you, you will have to find yourself;
There are no one which can tell you how your future looks like, you are the one who responsible for that. I'm hereby, wish myself all the best for the decision that I made, may god be with me.
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